When you walk my way, hope it gives you hell

11.35 pm, 27 Oct Tuesday


Hahah, gosh i was on the phone with Azhad. He called me through my bro's phone. I was laughing like non-stop when we talked. He was bored then, so that's the reason why he called me. But, my bro picked up the phone first ;

Bro : Halo.?
Az : Halo
Bro : Hey sayang, bkn ke u nk kol i kol 12 mlm nih.? I tggu u taw. (wattahell.? xD)
Az : Eeeeek, aku geli doo, nk ckp ngan kakak kau laa. Eee geli geli -.-'
Bro : HAHAH, okey laa weh.

Zie : Halo.? Hahah, azhad.
Az : Yo wassap. Kau wat pe jer huh.?
Zie : Mspace laa obviously. Hahah, kau pon on9 an.? Aku tahu :P
Az : Yeah aku online gne phone. Ada wireless. Tak mcm kau laa, daa ade laptop sendiri an. Bleh on9 smpai x ingat dunia.
Zie : Mana ada laa bongok. Hahah adoii -.-'
Az : Ye laa, adek kau pon sama. On9 tak ingat dunia.
Zie : Hahah, merepek laa kau.! Kau jrg online skrg an.?
Az : Manaa adee, kau ah jrg onlinee doo.
Zie : Oh eh.? Busy kot, eh asal kat profile kau yang umo kau 40 thun. Tuanya kwn aku nih xD
Az : Hahah, (he got say something, and i didn't hear O,O)
Zie : Huh apa kau ckp uh.?
Az : Ya allah, aku ckp ngan dinding ker.? Adoii. -.-'
Zie : Laa, aku pekak. Takkan tatau kot. Hahah, lamaa x korek taik telinga, HAHAH xDD
Az : Masya allah kau nih zie. HAHAH, ptut laa aku ckp kau x dgr. Hahah.
Zie : Xpa nnt aku korek so biar jelaasss. Hahah.
Az : Weh seriusly aku geli ngan adek kau. Geli geli GELIII.
Zie : Hahah ,weh yg mula2 kol tuh bkn aku. Adek aku. Saje jer die tuh nk ngorat kau. HAHA.
Az : GELI. Weh (i dunno what he said soo hee -.-')
Zie : Huh.? Apa weh aku x dgr.?
Az : Zie.! Kau blurr ker weh.? Aduh, aku rasa nk bunuh diri jer ble nk ckp ngan kau.
Zie : HAHAHAH, aku x izinkan. Sorry weh, aku mmg tatau apa kau ckp. HAHAH, obviously pekak. (x
Az : Ye ahh, mmg pon. Kau nih zieee. -.-

So, yeah I was the one who didn't hear him soo clearly on the phone. Hahah, sorry Az aku wat kau mnjerit2 ble kol aku. Itu laa aku. Heheh. (x
I don't want to write the whole conversation. It's too long. Hahah Az, I don't feel bored anymore. Nice talk to you, buddy. :D

Oh yes, last night I have received this stupid comment from this gurl who's same school with Mr. S. She was like maki2 me, with so sudden. She wrote that I am over and I should go die. She thinks that she is moree cute than me too. And so on. I was like, wattahell.?

Weh perempuan, kau tak tahu psl aku ngan Syahiran, jgn nk masok cmpur ah. Dah laa, perasan tak sedar diri. Suka hati je kau nak maki aku, kau fikir aku suka ker hah.? Vavi laa kau.

Just GET LOST, if you want to mess up with me, okey.?

We're meant to be

12.45 am, sunday 25th October 2009 (:

Happy First Year of Anniversary, Sayang (:


Yes it is. Today on 25th October of 2009, Mr. S and I have been loving each other for one year. (: Hee, iloveyou sooooo much laa deng. Oh yaa, remember that pic.? It was taken on 25th October 2008 in my wife's house, Mar. :D

It was so funny that time. You and me were playing a game called 'lawan mata'.? HAHAH, yeah this game is like when the person blinks his or her eyes, that person is gonna lose. Ahah, i was too confident that i could bet you. But i was wrong. When the game was started, of course we both were staring each other. But you were staring me like too deep. Serious boy (: And finally I gave up. I blinked my eyes, but you didn't. Gosh, when you were staring me into the eyes that time, I was trying to interpret something that u want to tell me when you looked me in the eyes. I knew what was it. HAHAH :P

Then, at night we were calling on the phone and talk talk talk then we were officially bf and gf that night. My heart was blooming. Hee. Yeah, but i was so sad that time bcos I had to leave to Sarawak for 2 months. Haih. nevermind, old story. (:

So sayang, I wanna say that I'm glad that I have found you. I really miss the time when there was a rain and we both were playing with the rain. I love those moments. I will always keep those in my minds and yes in my heart too.

Raja Syahiran bin Raja Azharianshah, I love you so much. I know that we have been through a lot of mistakes or obstacles but we could face them together. Gaduh2 tuh biasa laa. It's not perfect if we're not fighting. And heh i x mintak gado2 taw :P Well boy, you are my only one. I really hope that our relationship will lasts until when when (like you said, HAHAH xD) Okey let's just correct this statement. I want our relationship will lasts forever. :D

Deng, you are my perfect drugs, I'm getting moree addicted to you. I just can't live without you. You make me strong. And I am sorry for mistakes I have done to you. I know that I am not perfect. But I will try to be a perfect girlfriend to you. So that you will always happy.

p.s: one two threee... (:

Now that I know

3.45 pm, monday 19 oct.


I feel so down right now. Hmm, last night I just can't control my feelings, the anger feeling. I know everything what you have done last time, before I'm with you. It's just soo wrong. And I do not want this happen to me. Because I am afraid. I'm afraid that you'll do the same thing to me.

Boy, you should know that I don't want to get hurt. That's all what I want. If I just get hurt, it will makes me to stop falling in love. I don't want to go to my past times, when the other boys hurt me. It was so pain, and you don't really know how much the pain is. I have learnt something from those experiences. And I don't want you to be one of them. I hate it.

I know that you're faithful to me, even we're in long distance relationship. I just wanna make things better. And I know that our first year anniversary is just getting nearer. Hope you notice that. Hmm, people might changing. I hope this will happens to you. I just want the best from you. That's all.

People can't judge themselves. Well, so do I. I don't know how to judge myself. Only other people can judge me. And maybe, they will teach me into a better person, just like my parents did. Hmm, that's all I wanna say.

p/s: I love you...
pss ; Nabihan Ayub, happy belated birthday. Sorry lmbt wish. -.- Hope you're happy especially with your boy (:

Fall to pieces

Dear A'in, i know you want to listen this 'not so happy ending' story. Ahah, yeah I'm going to make a quite long story. Hope that you're not sleepy while you're reading. xD

Ehem ... In our language okey, sayang (:

So, storynya bermula d ctok. Kmk mula2 knl nya masa mek form 1. Yeah mlalui ex bf mek num 1. Eheh. Nya tua setahun dr kita. So bila mek ngga nya masa form 1, nya laa paling ske kaco kmk setiap kali mek ngan ex bf mek. Kwn ex bf mek yg laen sikda kedak ya. So, he was the most annoying then. HAHAH.

Masa form 2, mek da sik ngan ex mek ya. So, bila da fom 2 ya mulaa laa mek suka dkt nya tok. Kmk suka nya sbb nya lucu, n ske molah mek gelak. Heh, oh yaa nya pgws masa ya. Kitak mok tauk.? Kamek masa fom 2 jd pgws semata2 nya. Ceh, bodoh ali jak. Hahah, parents mek sik agree sbb mek jd pws, BUT at last sidaknya agree. Mek happy laa coz bila mek jd pgws kmk akn slalu jmpe nya. Heh, idea bgus tp sik sberapa sbb pgws boring. Hahah, tp sbb ada laki ya, mek sggup. Yeah, biasa laa. Sebab kmk nang ske nya alu.

So, bile jd pgws yaa, selalu laa jmpe nya. Ble mek org ada terserempak, MESTI ada expresionnya yg tersengih2 mcm kerang busuk. Hahah, nya ske tersengih tapi x penah say hi. Then ada satu hari tok, kmek ada miskol dr num x knl. Byk kali miskol laa. Annoying ahh. So, at last org pon miskol ya madah laa sapa. It was the guy. Heh, mek tny laa sine nya dpt num mek. Nya madah curi dr curi dr hp kwnnya. So, mek heran laa. So chattin2 lamak smpe kol 1 besanya. Apa mek org klaka ya mek da lupak. Heh. -.-

Mek orang suka maen miskol setiap mlm. Sms yaa mcm sik gilak, HAHAH jimat kedit laa konon tek. Mek orang men miskol smpai berpuluh2 kali laa, beratus ada juak mek rasa. LOL.

Then masa mek form 3 nya daa tarik diri jd pgws. Kmk terkejut gilaaaa. Serius, patah hati pon ada. Hahah, yalaa org daa jd pgws tp nya daa 'sign out'. Heh, rugilaa. Bengong miak ya. -.- So, mlm ya mek nanyak nya pahal sik jd pgws. Nya madah nya lelah, sik thn. Oh yaa, nya sik tauk pun kmk jd pgws sebabnya. Secret laa. Hahah. So mek phm laa. Nya daa form 4 masa yaa. Mayb nya agik pentingkan study. Yeah, he really really did.

Masa mek form 3 tok, well smua jd mcm x betol bg mek. Yeah, nya daa mulaa smbong. Maen miskol daa xda. So, one day mek sms nya, mek nanyak nya pehal sombong daa. Yg pliknya nya jwb sikda alu nya sombong. Nya madah kmk sombong. So mek mcm blurr laa. Hahah, then mekorg madah hari esok mesti TEGUR. Hahah, sapa sik tegur org ya laa smbong. Heh.

So, ari isnin daa. After perhimpunan ble da abis tugas mek(kmk pgws baa) kmek naik ke klas. Kelas mek ngan kelas nya sama tgkat, sebaris gik. I was so lucky then (: So, bilaa daa naik yaa tetiba mek nmpk nya dr ujung koridor tok otw mek ke klas mek. Mek nervous, nervous gilaa laa, sik penah rasa cmya. So, dari sinun mek nmpk nya tersengih2. Heh, nya tersengih lebar aliii jak. Dlm aty mek nahan jak rasa pecah perut. BUT, ble lalu jak sblh, dua2 pndang TAPI sikda say hi or wat. I was speechless. Nya ya mek sik tauk laa. Hahah, so mlm ya sms nya madah mek sombong. Bongok ali jak nya, laki laa ptut brani. Cehh. Oh yaa, muka nya cket2 kedak Dafi AF yaa. Heh, rami laa madah kedak yaa.

Oh yaa, satu hari mek orang sms. Kmk luah perasaan mek ngan nya. Kmk madah mek suka nya, so nya mdah the same thing. Nk mintak gerek ngan nya tapi maluu. Nya pon sik brani nk mintak. Duh, asal laa nya bengap gilak.? -_________-' Emm, kmk slalu lalu dpn klas nya. Pake amik inspirasi baahhh. It was working wlaupon nya perasan. Mek malu2 jak laa. Hee.

Lepas peristiwa luah feelings yaa, nya mcm sombong laa ngan mek. Sik tegur laa. Mek heran laa. Nk tanyak nya pehal ngn nya, tp mek mcm iboh jak laa. Mcm kaco nya jak.

Then, abis pmr kmk mcm merdeka laa. Kmk fikir, kmk mok gerek ngn nya tpi pkir nyk kali. Iboh jak eh nanyak.Then, tetiba ada satu ari tok nya mok lepak ngn kmk. Depan umah mek. Kamek mcm simok laa mula2, tp nya pksa mek juak. So, mek lepak laa ngan nya. Nya bak gitar skali. So sweet (: N yeah nasib mak mek tgh tido masa mek lepak ngn nya. Mun sik, kmk sik dpt lepak laa. Kmek bersyukur alu masa ya. HAHAH. -.-' So, mek orang klaka laa. Nya tgh maen gitar smbil2 klaka yaa. Mek nanyak nya, sik minat nk ada gf kah.? Nya jwb study lok, pmpuan dudi. So mek mcm ohh okey. Ahah, mek org klaka mcm2 cerita. Nanyak laa asl tetiba mok lepak ngn mek, nya madah saja jak. Nya mok lepak ngan kmk lamak cket, tapi xdpt tkut bapak mek blik dr keja. HAHAH. So, masa nk blik yaa, kmek juz ngga rah mata nya jak. Then, bile nya daa nk smpe ujung nk blik, smpat nya mndang mek. So, that was the last time i met him. Sebb mek nk pndah umah and pndah skola.

Hmm, kmek da tggu nya 2 thun(masa fom 2 and 3), nk berhenti berharap jak. Tapi x dpt2. So, dis year kmek dpt tauk nya daa ade gf. Kmk terkejut, coz kmk tggu nya lamak tp nya sik prasan juak. Dgn pmpuan laen cpt ali jak nya. Haih, apa senjata pmpuan ya pake mikat dis guy tok kmk pon sik tauk.

I miss him, that's all I want him to know

So, that is the story. Sik sempat nk say goodbye pon mek org. Well, mek org maybe juz ditakdirkan for nothing. Nya daaa mcm lupak kwn, kmk sik kesah laa. Lantak nya. It's okay, kmk dpt berthn sebab ada Mr. S. He is my spirit now (:

[Sorry pjg gilak, apa cmmnt tak.? Heheheh ;D]

I miss you my dearest cousin, A'in <333

How to save a life

6.41 pm, 15 oct thursday

Hooooray.! The school is going to have holidays for Deepavali. I'm quite happy thou, yeah i need to get rest after struggling with final exam. But still, after holidays, there are moree to come. Ngek -.-

I'm not kinda satisfied with the exam papers especially the toughest subject, Physics. yeah, seriously with those thousands of formulas, haih. Pening woo. Addmaths was okay for the paper 1. Just wait till paper 2 to come. Ceh, mcm laa tak sabar, heh. -_____-

Hmm, miss my deng so much, my Mr. S. Well then, nothing much to say rite now. No idea why, ahah. Daaa.

Fallin' for you

12.23 am , sunday 11 0ct
Today was awesome. I went to two houses, which was one in the afternoon and the other one, i went there just now. The afternoon one was my friend's open house, Zahrul (: . It was fun thou, and i enjoyed the beriani rice. Sedaaap.! ;D

Then, around 8 pm, me and Az went to D's house, she held a BBQ party there. After a while, Az went out to fetch my darling, Mr. S. Hee. When Mr. S arrived there, well everyone was looking at him. Then Mar was like teasing me. Ahah, thanx laaa. :P Then me, Nadiah, Mar, Az, and finally Mr.S sat together then talk stuffs. Ahah, i forgot what we talked just now. Maybe I was too high cause he was there too. Shhh. HAHAH deng, im happy cause you were communicate with my friends well, even though you don't know them. Hee, i think the girls like you especially the chinese. Yeah, i know laa. :P

Around 10, went back home with a not so good feeling. Well, Mr. S are going to leave tomorrow. Cepatnyaaaa. -.- Went back home with Az and Mr. S. It was dark, yeah obviously. Hahah. -.-'
Argh, I cant let him go. It's too hard for me to let you go. Haih. Nevermind, u got the goodbye err, shhh. HAHAH.

So, that's all for now. And yeah Mar, I hope that you didn't miss the chance. Hope he has called you. I know you miss him soo much, i got that. Sabar sayangg, (: Itulaa, lain kali letak hp dlm poket :P

Nites people, love you my deng (:

Untitled

5.22 pm , monday 5 Oct.

Today, the form 4 no need to go to school. Same like tomorrow, so i have moree time to study. Ahah, the final exam is starting on this wednesday so hopefully I can do my exams. My preparation for the final exam is like err 70 percent.? Yeah, I have to gain 30 more percents.

First paper of the exam is SEJARAH. Wattahell.? HAHAH, i read the half of sejarah THICK book for now. Ain't pretty much huh.? Well, still got more chapters to read. Haih, seriously I'm more like going to faint. HAHAH, like mau mati laa, habis cerita. -.-

God, help me. I need you to guide me so i can do well in my exams. Hee. I am really really focus for this exams even my brain can't accept some info for now. Ahah, yeah im study like going to crazy and of course the brain will become tired of gaining the informations. Azie oh azie, rilek sikit otak tuh, kang orang jauh risau. ;P

So, this wednesday, the Form 3 students are going to sit for PMR. Well, good luck then people. And Farah Edrina SEPET, i know you can laa. Heheh, you're clever girl and i know you can reach your aim for 8A's. Trust me, sis. (: Same goes to shiyuan, nona, adik Nabihan and others too. Good luck.! Do your best, be FOCUS. And don't be TOO confident. Just put your aims in your head always. Ceh, jadi penceramah plak -.-'

Finally,

Azie will be AWAY for the final exam from 7th Oct to 23rd Oct 2009, wish her luck (;


[ps; Nabihan daa buat MS, HAHAH bagus bagus :D ]
[pss; I saw DI yesterday at the street when I was in the car, wohoh. Why you suddenly showed up huh.? You should not exist. I'm too mean rite.? Yeah, I know. -.- ]
[ psss; Deng Mr. S, your handphone still dekat warden kah.? LAMANYAA. I miss you laa, you tahu tak.? :P ]

Foods are not bombs

Saturday , 7.15 pm 3 oct

Just came back from Mariam Amira's open house. Dilyla's parents sent me and my bro there. Thanx D coz u let me tumpang you. Heh.Reached there before 4 pm. The open house was fun, for sure. There were me, bro, D, Gabe, Man Yi, Audrey, Nabihan, Eif, Ranjit, Sofwan, Amir, Ridhwan, and many moree. I ate like hmm alot. HAHAH, Manyi told me that I'm still skinny even when I eat alot. Lol. -.-

Oh yess Mar, your cupcakes are just too awesome. I mean delicious laa. Hahah. My lil sis still wants more. Can you make the cupcakes again just for ME.? Hee, kiddin laa sayaang. (:
Me and friends were talking bout lot of stuffs. Nabihan was the one who came late. Everyone was waiting for you, Aby. Hahah. ;P

Around 6 o'clock, me n Az went back with D and Gabe. Oh yeah, D wanna make a partayy nex week, so can't wait. I kno you want me to come earlier. Ahah, I will babe. (:
Mar, I hope you like the bday present that i gave to you. And i hope this present are special to you. Yeah, from your own bestie maa. Hee, and soo sorry, I didn't wear baju kurung for your open house. Huh, my bad. I felt so weird coz I didn't wear the baju kurung. Sorry eh (:
Duh, I miss my deng. I need you. Arghhh, Deng Syahiran.!! -.-

[p/s ; Azie dapat duit raya, HAHAH xD ]