Life is so complicated

It is 3 a.m now and I still cannot sleep.


Keliru, satu perkataan yg mengungkapkan sesuatu
oh aku mmg berasa keliru , aku tidak tahu kenapa
ia hanya sukar utk diungkapkan,
perasaan bercampur-baur telah menyelubungi diri aku,
apakah maksud dia.? betulkah mimpi itu boleh jadi satu realiti.?
aku hanya inginkan satu jawapan, dan aku sedang mencari
aku takut, takut jika ada yg terluka
oh hidup ini, memang sungguh mengelirukan


Hmm, just ignore me. I'm only writing down for what I feel now.

Why you're so obsessed with me.?

Apparently, I feel sick, maybe it is because of the weather. School was nothing much to do, some teachers didn't enter to my class. Don't know laa why, maybe they were busy with photoshoot stuffs. But most of the time, I helped Haziq doing his BM folio, he wanted me to give some ideas to write on 'penghargaan'. Yeah today was the last day to pass up the thing, and many people were doing their folios for the last minute. Or else, like Puan Noria said, "Kalau kamu hantar minggu depan, saya tolak lima markah". Luckily, I've passed up my folio yesterday, or else, I'll be losing those precious marks.

Puan Teo have set a new rule which is, JANGAN TIDUR DI DALAM KELAS. Everyone was like, woooaahhhh. HAHAH, I'm sure they have did the thing, well who doesn't.? I did that once, because I was having lack of sleep on that day. Only once, heh -.- So, people who's sleeping in the class and the teachers complain bout them will be di-merit. Wow, what a punishment. Babai for those people who really love to sleep, they're really have to change their attitude.

Okay, feeeling so sleepy now, ah shoot next week is exam. Ahh, gotta ready for that or else, I'll be doomed.

p/s ; Happy one year and four months anniversary. And salam Maulidur Rasul.
pps ; I have cut my hair, and they curl up. Oh yeah, say helloo again to the old hair.

THE 20.02.2010

THE FIRST TIME

It was an amazing first date,first outing, first skate with my bestie,senior,lover and my deng.Awww.. starting we suppose celebrate a friends birthday but she did not make it.It was fine for me because i got to spent time with my deng. We straight away went to the iceskating ring. We went in and it was like a cinderella pose when i tied up her boots for skate(it was kinda romantic for me). We skate for like one round then she had blisters or something. then we rest. her bro was getting pro.^.^. So i teman her.. she slept on me it felt like heaven..awww.. walaupon ader orng usha.. i did nothing i just want her lies on me as she can.. then.... i excidently said about my friend which is FLAMING HOWT then me but a better version of me it feels like urgh.... blablabla (jealous).. I forgot to tell about the two annoying numbskulls. They were asking for our help to take care of their bag while they went skating they were so damn rude! they even punch and bitten me. wth DID I EVER DID TO THEM? so.. i could see tht deng was feeling unconfertable with them aroud.Unfortunately they stayed till we end. nothing much to tell all i know it was a find yet disturbing n jealousy first time but it was worth it i can see my deng.. ok the rest i want my deng to tell you so.. tell them deng (ur feelings , the moment , what happnd and everything else..

p/s: don't fall inlove with him deng!

I love my deng!

- Syahiran

Part Two, Azie (:

Okay, today was awesome. HELL yeah, I went ice skating which I never did that before. HAHAH, it was pretty sucks. I kept falling and falling. But, it was okay later, Deng was there and I know he is really a pro, and I'm quite jealous with that. Ahah. :P There were only 4 people went to ice rink, me Dillon, my bro and my deng. Well, I'm quite happy because I got spent time with my Deng. Well, I still remember there was a part when he got jealous, he muncungkan bibir and HAHAH comel laa dey. :P I know you will do like that when you got jealous, well I know you better. And yes, Deng was a really stubborn too. -.-

Well, at this time, there were two girls trying to kacau my Deng, I mean those small kids. They were annoying, but they were kind at the same time. Because they thought me how to skate. Ahah, pity for those who kena kacau from them, especially Deng. Oh yes, I want to tell you that the guy, well you know the Sibu guy, I DON'T attracted with him, like "Woahh, bapak hot sial mamat tuh, cair hati aku' . Heheh something like that. I don't care about any guys there, but there is only one person who I really care much. It's you. Well deng, you know how much I love you. Thanks for the precious time you gave me when I was beside you. It was a memorable day, I will never ever forget it (:

P/S ; Iloveyou laa deng (:

Morning coffee

Woooohoooo.! Its 6 am in the morning. I woke up around 5 am, for God's sake don't know why, I just can't sleep very well. HAHAH, I don't know whether I'm excited or nervous or something because of today. Hee. Yes, today baby.! I'm going to Sunway, celebrating someone's birthday, err like for the first time. HAHAH, yes yes, first time -.- Finally, I'm ALMOST free :P

Well, can't wait to skate today, which is my first time too. HAHAHAH, bangang. Well, obviously I don't know how to skate. Hopefully Deng will teach me how. Hee, okey that's all for today. Oh by the way, good morning peopleee (:

Heartless

I have found this awesome website about fashion. Gosh, I like those clothes, jeans, tights, and soo on. They're soo trendable and fashionable. I think I'm going to look out more about these new and fresh stuffs. And I might grab this oppurtunity to change my current looks. Oh well, I'm going to be seventeen and I want real different outfits. Heee.

Okay, for this moment I feel so emm, suckish. Like don't know how to manage things well, and messing up everything. I really need someone to share about this, but it seems I can't find one. So I just keep queit all the time, and let these things to poof away, hoping that it would works.

Literally, I want to stand at the top of the mountain, maybe Everest one and shout out loud 'Deng.! Imissyouuuuu.!' so the whole world could hear me. HAHAH, I know it sounds soo impossible, but I just imagine that. Okey, enough, I'm just too over. -.-

Anyway. that's all for tonight and it's already 1.30 am. Deng, iloveyou taw.? (:

Yeah, we're going down

Holiday is coming. Hoo yeah, I feel soo good. Today there were only a few people came to school. My class was like only 18 people came. So it was quiet all the time because the 'gang' was not there. Ahah.

I belanja Eiffah today because she is about to leave to MRSM Langkawi. I gave her a simple card, and a souvenir from Sarawak. Oh yes, she loves those stuffs. Haih, for sure I'll miss the girl. Well, I don't feel like to write a long post tonight. Okay I'm out.

Imissyou ):

Sometimes I realize it was true

Sport's day today was extremely fun. Norton, my rumah sukan won the first place.! Yeah, I'm proud. At first, I didn't believe that. Yeah, there were other rumah sukan that better than us. Nevermind, the Norton people have done their best, and we are really grateful for our victory. :D

Deng wasn't there, so of course I felt bored. But lucky I got my friends there, walking around the padang, then stopped at any stalls to buy food and drinks, then chit-chatting bout all kind of stuffs. And I'm literally tired. Plus I'm starting to have a flu. Ahh shoot -.-

For these past few days, I had this weird feelings that I couldn't figure out what it is. It is so weird, and it happens like for every weekdays. I just want to get rid of it with my fullest effort, but it seems I can't. And at the same time, I feel guilty. It seems wrong to me.

I need a clue, and an answer. I feel confused now.