Never knew I needed

Happy One Year and Nine Months Anniversary

I love you (:

So they say it's best to go your seperate ways

I really have no mood today. It's all because of some stupid stuffs that was just happening around me. You know what.? I don't know why you're acting like this and I felt so uneasy with it. Then, you asked me to do something that I really don't want to do because I felt it's just so wrong. How am I going to end something like "Poof.! Kau dah hilang sebab kau di'buang' . " ? Man, please and please try to understand me.

Just now, mom gave me some advices. She said that, "Don't let anyone to control of your life because you're still schooling. Don't take any relationships seriously because your journey is still long. Think of your future. I don't want this person to control your everyday's life always. You're not married yet." She told me this as she read those messages in her phone's inbox. She knows how to judge a person. You know who am I talking about. I'm agree with her though, because I have my own paths to go on with my life. I don't want this particular person controls me and follow whatever this person says like "Nanti kau buat tuh, buat nih, mesti bagitahu aku laa." Gosh, I don't want this happen to me like for the whole of my life. I want to be free too. It's my life, and I can do everything what I want. Thanks for the advice mom (:

P/s; Tomorrow, I'm going to USJ8 Carnival. Can't wait to rock the school.!

B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO ME (:

Celebrated my birthday in Sunway with family in Indonesian Reataurant, Ayam Penyet, then went for a shopping just for me. Before that, I received plenty of wishes from friends in school. And the first one who wished me was Mariam Amira, my best friend. Ohh I love you girl. She texted me exactly on 12 pm, and a few seconds later, Deng wished me too. However, he was the second one who wished me. Aww, u lambat sikit :P

I didn't bought a cake for my birthday. My dad bought me a brownies cake at Secret Recipe, and we ate at the place too. By the way, thanks for those who wished me and I love you guys a lot, especially my Deng. I'm happy in my day, and hopefully all my wishes will become true (:

ABCDE

Went to Tony Roma's at Sunway Pyramid to celebrate dad's birthday, ate yummy food there and I still can feel my stomach is full now. I might go to school tomorrow even the doctor said I shouldn't. We'll see.

Anyways, there's still 9 more days left for the BIG DAY. Hihih :3

From yesterday

It's almost 1.30 am and I'm still not sleeping yet. Not going to school tomorrow because of the damn flu and I'm pretty sick with it. Haih -.- Today, I saw Nnena with a different hair style. Everyone was a lil surprised include me, because no one has seen her with short hair. I think her hair looks more tidy than before, lol. Yamin kept saying her hair looked like a Barbie doll, but in a different way which is ugly. I was like huh, bukan Barbie doll tu comel ke weh.? HAHAH, boys boys, they're just cannot differentiate things.

I feel so confused right now. I feel like I'm not appreciating what I have. Even, the person keeps telling me to have a faith on it. I don't know what to do now, because I'm lost.
And one more thing, I feel lonely nowadays.

When you get what you want but not what you need

Ohh, I'm so frustrated and I still feel it. Brazil lost to Netherlands. Urrgghhh, I don't know why the Brazil players didn't make it. Netherlands one were not bad, they played hard and I did not expect they won this. Nevermind, tomorrow Germany is playing with Argentina and I'm going to support Germany because I know they're going to win it and make it to semi-final. Ahah well, let's just hoping that.

Tomorrow, I might go to Cameron Highlands. Mum really wants to go there and we haven't been there since I'm staying in Subang. Hahah, I know it sounds awkward but I hope it is fun there. Even some people say it's booring. We shall see.

It's third of July and August is coming nearer and nearer. I'm going to have my trials in August. I feel a bit nervous, and I know the preparation for it is fuhhreaking IMPORTANT. There's no time to turn back. There's no time to play. Because this time, it is serious and use the time wisely as you can. (wow, the words frighten me and I don't know why I wrote them, HAHAHAH -.-' )

It's almost 2 a.m. Hmm, I miss my boyfriend badly. I miss his texts. I miss everything about him ):