Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face,

You told me how proud you were but I walked away,

If only I knew what I know today.

I would hold you in my arms,

I would take the pain away,

Thank you for all you've done

Forgive all your mistakes,

There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again,

Sometimes I wanna call you,

But I know you won't be there.

I'm sorry for blaming you,

For everything I just couldn't do,

And I've hurt myself by hurting you.

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit,

Sometimes I just wanna hide cause it's you I miss,

And it's so hard to say goodbye,

When it comes to these rules.

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help to understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do,

To have just one more chance,

To look into your eyes,

And see you looking back.

If I had just one more day,

I would tell you how much that I've missed you

Since you've been away.

I've hurt myself by hurting you.

I love you RS ):

You, Me and stars

Hello blog, I miss you a lot! It has been months since I wrote this blog. I've been busy studying in Matriks Selangor and that's the reason why I couldn't often online. Anyways, me and my family went back to hometown in Sarawak for this Raya and so far Raya with my relatives was good. It has been two years I didn't see them. And Sarawak got a lot of changes. Pretty proud of it (:

And to my deng, I know he has been waiting for me for sooo long to write this blog. So here I am boy, writing this post for you. Well, these few months there were so many problems in our relationships. Like a lot. I felt too weak to face the problems because it was just too hurt. I know you're hurt too. Conclusion, we both are hurting until now. It was all because of the past. There's so much things happen in the past. I know I promised you to forget it but I'm sorry I can't hold the promise because that thing will stuck in my mind always. But, I hope I can forget about it and move on with the new beginning in life. We have been together for almost 3 years. Next month is our 3rd year of anniversary. I hope we can celebrate it together. And yeah start our new life together from there, and forget about the past. I hope we both have learnt from our mistakes. I really hope that deng. Well, all I want now is hoping for the best for both of us for the next few years and yeah there'll be more challenges coming after us. Hmm, hopefully we both can make it. I will trust you. I'm sorry for not keeping my promises always, I hope i can change it. You know, when I look into your eyes yesterday, you make my heart beat faster and yeah I feel like I can read something from your eyes. Btw I wont forget when the time where we watched the stars together. It was wonderful. I wont forget that. Deng, I want to say that I'm sorry that I can't be perfect in your eyes. I'm just a girl who keep doing the mistakes and hoping that I can change it. I'm sorry .

I guess that's all for now. I wish I can write more but time is not with me now. Bye folks , and I love you deng .

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