The one that got away

Hmm, I do feel lonely sometimes. Now, everything has changed. Maybe because of the distance or things happening around me. I don't know why, I just can feel a hole inside my heart. An empty hole. A dark hole. Nvm, who cares. I'm the only one who knows how I feel. And I know what to do just to make myself happy. It's not like texting other guys or blablabla. It's just doing my hobby like taking pictures or yeah blogging.

You know what, I'm trying my very best to show you that I am really changing to a better person. Nak tahu x? Byk perkara yang I pendam dalam hati I. If I say it, you'll think differently. Actually it's not. Semua benda I nak cakap, semua tak betul dekat mata you. I terfikir, apa yg nak buat you fikir apa I cakap selama ni betul ke tak? I know I did a lot of mistakes during the past! But I didn't do it anymore! You ingat masa lepas you tak buat salah lgsg? Just try to remember it. Btw, I'll cry every single night because I keep a lot of things in my mind. Dah byk sgt pendam. Dah tak tahan sgt nak pendam byk sgt perkara. Nak bagitahu you pun dah takut. Bcoz y? YOU SAID YOU DON'T TRUST ME ANYMORE. Then I want to rely on who? Don't say syahmi lah, haziq lah ke sapa2 lah. FYI, they're just my friends and I don't need them just to make me happy. The only one that make me happy is just being with family. Now, I just can see them once a week. You know how hard it is. BTW, you know right that I'm being honest to you. TAPI? I jujur pun salah. SEMUA SALAH! I told you about Syahmi, you fikir lain. I bagitahu bukan nak bg you jealous ke apa ke, I bagitahu sbb I just nak jujur. BUT you said I need him more blablabla, FYI when u said that, it hurts me inside a lot. A LOT. BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT EXACTLY HOW I FEEL AND WHAT I NEED. Seriously, when you can see my heart, you'll see a lot of things. Things yang I pendam sbb dah takut sgt nak bagitahu u.

I guess the hole inside my heart will just remains there.

Count on me like 123 and I'll be there

Hello people again :D Tonight I feel like wanna write something to fill my leisure time. While waiting for deng to reply my bbm (he's eating maggi now -.-) , I'm gonna blogging. Umm, okay ehem. I don't know how to start but hello :D haha, it's 1.35 am now and yeah I feel a bit sleepy. But with determination to write this post, I can bare it with easily. Ok lol I am not supposed to talk about this -.-

So, it has been awhile since I updated the last post. I've been busy with KMS and it's hard for me to find the right time to blogging. But I guess now it's the time. Huhu. Deng is going to leave Subang in a few days, hmm. He'll be going to UiTM Melaka which is far from Subang. Dayumn /: He's going to leave for 3 years. It's quite a long time and yeah I'm afraid. I know he can go back here but I guess it's not going to be too often. Hmm, I guess we're going to face a long distance relationship again which is hard for us. I know the past got a lot of memories that cannot be forgotten. I disappointed him last time. It was hurt for him but he's still stick with me. Well , actually we both hurt each other last time. Well, you know the story. I don't want to mention them here.

Besides, we both keep fighting all the time for some of the reasons and yeah sometimes fight for no reasons at all. I don't like to fight but sometimes I start it -.- Okay, I hope when we both are away from each other, I just want us not to fight too often because that will bring us a bad effect. And, we must keep contact to each other every single day. That will keep us closer to each other.

Deng, I'm going to be loyal with you no matter what. You just have to trust me, that's all matters. I know it's kinda hard for you to accept this but I really mean it when I say this. I hope we both can make it together. We already made it through 3 years. That's quite a long time. So there's only 7 years left :P 7 years is a very long time but I hope we manage to make this relationship works, ngee (: Well, one most important message to you before you go is JANGAN USHA ORANG DI SITU HAHAHA, OK ZZZZ -.- and yeah be loyal with this relationship and I trust you deng. So don't break my trust on you. Belajar rajin-rajin! Nanti dapat a better future :P Hee and I hope we both can still holding on even I can't see you in front of me. But you're always in my heart, always deng (:

Anyways, people say me and deng look alike. Well, people keep saying that since I was in form 4. HAHAHA, at first I don't trust them but in the end, many people say that we both got the same looks, pssstt even my mum. And they thought we both are siblings -.- I was like, no we're not. I called both of us as a TWIN! Haha, he's my twin and I love him. Ngeee, finally I found my twin :D

The latest pic of us (:

Well I guess that's all for tonight. I'm feeling tired and feel like want to sleep. Tomorrow morning I'm going to skype with deng. Wee :D Goodnight people!

12 November 2011

Nawwal's Surprise Birthday Party! Surprise Nawwal! :D

Yesterday, on 12th November 2011, me, Deng, Zahrul, Haziq, Faiq, Yamin, and Amir surprised Nawwal in Kenny Roger's Sunway for her birthday. Thanks to her parents for helping us planning this surprise party for her. They brought Nawwal there :D Haha, she was damn surprised to see us there. And yeah, she was totally blurr! Haha. Thanks to Zahrul and Deng for helping me to plan this. Even there's not so many people manage to come, but it was totally FUN! Well, Aiman and Izaaz only came for the last minute but we had dinner together last night. Thanks to Aiman too because he also wanted to surprise Nawwal. Hahah I dont know whether she's surprised or not :P

What's the best part was we went for ICE-SKATING! Well, Nawwal really don't like to go for that but we forced her. Hehe, finally she had to follow our plan. It was fun thou even me, nawwal and zahrul were not really good in ice-skating. OMG, the boys? They were so pro. They are really good in ice-skating. And poor Nawwal, she always got hit by Syhrn and Haziq :P FYI, I guess they both really loves to buli you xD

Thanks for everyone to make this party fun and awesome. I guess we really make Nawwal happy on her day. Even it's a bit late but we still celebrate her birthday right? Hee. So to Nawwal, Happy Birthday again. I love you loads! :D